BLAH!!!

Finally is starting back my blog.

I just can't take it anymore. I just need to let it out. Just don't mind me. My feelings have never been important to anyone. Why should it be now?

I am just really hurt at the moment. Don't worry about me, I will get over it sooner or later. I just really don't know what did I ever do to you to treat me like this. Maybe everybody just does not like being around me. Eve if I did do something bad to you, why don't you just tell me. Instead you prefer to just avoid me like a complete stranger.

I just want to know what did I ever do to you? Even if it may hurt me even more, why don't you just tell me. Instead you just let me wonder. It really hurts. I treat you so nicely, yet you go and do this to me.

I guess my feelings are true. Nobody likes to be around me at all. Although I am use to it. I just can't help but feel hurt and betrayed. If you don't want to talk to me anymore, why don't you just tell me. I don't mind. I will just feel hurt for awhile only. After that, I won't care anymore and will just leave you alone.

Why don't you care about how I actually feel. It hurts every time you just walk off like that. I just don't show it only. Why do you always just walk off like that. I purposely go and look for you during my breaks to keep you company, yet you still can just get up and walk off. I feel like I am just wasting my effort looking for you when I could be doing other things. I don't even like going to the library, yet I still come and look for you there. I just don't want you to feel lonely. Is that wrong?

I have not been sleeping much because I just can't stop thinking why you suddenly choose to avoid me. I really don't want to say this out because I don't want to hurt your feelings. I would rather be hurt than to see you hurt. I can take it. You don't have to worry about me at all. Just continue hanging out with your friends. I am use to being alone. I have always been alone. Since high school. Everybody just likes to leave me alone.

I guess that is something that will never change no matter where I go. It is ok. Sooner or later I will be able to forgive and forget. But for now, I would choose not to talk to you. I don;t really care if you don't want to me anymore. I just want to know the true reason why you choose to ignore me. Id that too much to ask? What did I ever do to deserve this kind of treatment? That is what I will be always asking myself from now on. I guess life is really unfair. Since when was it ever fair in the first place anyway.

That is all for now. I will not say who this person is, or where did I meet this person because I believe in keeping other people's reputation the way it always is. The person itself will only know who I am talking about.

Japan Trip

In the beginning of June I went to Japan with school. We stayed there for
10 days. A total of 18 people went, 7 students and 11 teachers. Yeah I know
there were more teachers that students. This post is just a brief
explanation of my trip to japan. I will soon be posting up each day and
the events. Each day will be on a different post. But I will only update
it if I have the time. Right now I am very busy with school. I am
having an academis week next week. Teacher are all asking us to do play,
scrapbooks, slides show and even asking us to launch a rocket
(not that I am complaining about the launching the rocket part)
but still, why must they ask us to do for almost every subject.
Can't they ask other classes to do it. It can get very
streesful you know.

Well that is all for now.
Till my next post.

Must Watch: Dance Subaru

I strongly recommend you to watch Dance Subaru. It is a movie ful of
determination and it inspire you to succeed in life. To thrive for what you
want. To never give up. To believe in what you do and to believe that you
can achieve anything you want ifyou work hard. It is so touching.
I give it a 2 thumbs up.

EXAM!!!!!

Where do I start. I started my exam on the 11 of May. Boy was BM a killer.
I have know idea what to put for the peribahasa and not to mention the komsas.
The giving meaning for phrases was also very hard. I feel like I failed the paper.
The essay was not bad. Although I ran out of idea halfway and decided to end
the essay we only about 5 to 6 paragraph. That is really short. It is compulsory
to write at least 350 words for the essay. It was to die for. I actually wanted to cry.

After BM was English. Overall the paper was alright. But there were a few minor
problems here and there. But like I said, overall was alright. Next was Mathematics.
How do I put it? Paper one was and can be considered easy to a certain point. For
paper two, well let just say it didn't go so well. The paper was a killer.

Now is the killer of all killer. My Additional Mathematics paper. I really wanted
to cry. It was so hard. Who would know that paper one also cold be so hard. Haih!!
Well, what is in the past is the past. I should be focusing on the future or in other
words, the upcoming exam. Which will be on Monday is Biology paper one and
two. On Tuesday is Physics paper two and three (DIE) . For Wednesday
it is Biology paper three and Chemistry paper three. Then on Thursday is
the dreaded History paper one and two (DIE 2X) . I am so going to be history
by my history teacher. Then Friday comes along with the subject of Chemistry
paper one and two. I would thing that this is the end of my exam. Well I am wrong.
Then there is Monday. Where I have Physic paper one, Est paper one and two
and last but not least, at least I think, is Civic. Which to me I think it is a waste of
time learning that in school.I also thing it is a waste of paper printing that exam
paper. Why can't they just let us just don't do that IDIOTIC paper in the first
place. By doing so, you will be helping to save the environment by cutting down
less trees for printing that STUPID exam paper. My deepest apology if I have
insulted anyone but I am just stating how i feel towards that paper.

Then finally, exams are over, my mid year break is starting, and also before I
forget, Teacher's Day celebration. The day everybody is waiting for. It is sure a
day to look forward for.

Is now feeling a bit down and worried over certain matters. Which I cannot
say anything about it. I will need to go and look for somebody to talk to
about this matter.

Till my next post.
See ya!!!

SMA Competition & Others

It was very scary. Ther feeling was nerve-recking.

To tell you the truth, I have no idea what I was felling at that time.

I was so scared. That I could not fight properly.

That is the main reason why I lost in the first place.

My first match was against Indonesia. That match was the one that really brought my spirit down. Nonetheless, I was given another to chance to fight again. After that I was already low on my spirit and did not feel like fighting anymore.

Well, after the fight, we had nothing to do already. Our competition have finish already and we were allowed to do anything that we wish.I got to see the people from other country fight. It was very nice and I had fun there. Cheering for everybody. So happy Lai Yan got bronse. It was really funny when Lai Yan had to go and compete with Rositaa Dawina. Some more they have been training together for the past week before the competition

I pity Pria, she only when back home at 12 midnight. She also did not come to school on Monday because she was too tired. She was also having a fewer a that time. Poor her. So sad. But nonetheless she still fought well. Then she was ask to take care of the tempat jual barang outside the hall.

Now is feeling very stress with the coming exam and everything that is happening in school. Like the add maths folio and many more. So stress. AHHHHH~~ To put with that I have exam next week. DIEEEEE!!!!!!

Oh well. Till next time. Very lazy to think of what to write la.

~BYE~

EXAMS!!!

Like I said in my previous post that my Intervensi II is on the 20th of April. I was not prepared for it at all.

Let me explain why. The week before the intervensi I had softball tournament and karate tournament. Two weeks before that, I was to busy practicing for my softball competition. So that would mean that I was hardly in class.

I am also the type of person that always study last minute. So that is another downfall of me. But nonetheless, I tried my best for the exam and the results were better then I have expected.

To put up with it, I was very tired after all the activities and yet I still have to sit for the exam.

listening to Eternal by DBSK

Karate Tournament!!!!!

After my softball competition, was my karate tournament. Woohoo!!!

It falls on the 19th of April. Just great. I am suppose to spend that day studying for my exam on Monday. But I am sure you all know that will never happen.

Back to the subject, we were suppose to be at school before 7 in the morning. Because they said that the bus will leave at 7 sharp. But at 7.10 the bus was not here yet. So sad. The bus only came at 7.30 and we had to fetch some homosapiens I mean people from their school. Whose name i cannot remember. Well actually i was mainly asleep in the bus to even know where we are going. All I know is that the place to get down was the community center.

It started off with what they call karabic. Which is the combination of karate and aerobic. It would have been fun if it wasn't so girly. BLEK!! Then it was time to separate us to our groups. Which is depending on our belt colour. The first competition was rolling. Unfortunately, for the brown belt we were not allowed to participate. We were ask to practice for Kata. So sad. I fell like crying.

Then it was lunch time. My favourite time of the day. Well, I wouldn't say that the food was horrible but it wasn't fantastic that is for one thing. After lunch, it was the hashibrai competition for the colour belt and the Kata competition for the brown belt. I wasn't to happy with the result. But non the less I tried my best.

After that it was the kumite competition. I also took part and was lucky enough to win it even though... that you think yourself. After all the competition was completed, it was the medal giving to all the winners. Then it was the time everybody was waiting for. The Lucky Draw. Well, i wouldn't consider it lucky, because I have never won anything from that before. How can that be lucky? Answer me.

I actually went back before the Lucky Draw ended. So I do not know who won the grand prize. Which is a new mountain bike. Not that i want it. Well actually I do want it. But does anybody care about what I want, noooo. But who cares what I think.

Overall, it was an enjoyable day. Except for the part where my mind kept on constantly reminding me about my intervensi II which was the next day.

Listening to Look at the sunset by DBSK

SOFTBALL!!!!!

Sorry for the extremely late update. I have been feeling very lazy to update.
I am only doing this out of pity to my dear readers

On the 13th of April, I participated in a softball competition. Well lets just say that the result was not so good. At least we made it to the 2nd round. Well that is because the other team didn't show up on that day. So it was a walk over. But anyway, lets get back to what I am suppose to say. The first day, was not so good. We were up against our old rival, Raja Abdullah. It didn't go so well. Luckily, our 2nd opponent didn't show up. If they did, I seriously do not know what will happen. Maybe we might be able to go to the second round also.

The next day was on the 15th of April, we went for our second match. It was with Taman Bukit Maluri. We are actually better then them. But because of a small mistake that we made, we lost to them with the score 10-9. It was so close. But that is okay. We learn from our mistake and will try again next year.

Unfortunately, this is my last year to play softball. After that i am a little bit too old to take part in softball competition with school anymore. But the coach said that I can come back to help coach the team. Yeah, like that will happen. I will be to busy enjoying my college life. If I can. I hope I can.

Like they say, well I say. All post must have an ending. And I am ending it with "That's it"

Listening to wrong number by DBSK

Cross Country

My cross country was suppose to be held on the 13th of March 2009, but it got pospone due to the rain. So it was pospone to the 23rd of March.

On the 23rd of March, It started of like it was going to rain, but i haven't rain yet. Then when we started to walk to the park it started to drizzle and then the rain just got heavier and heavier. I and some of my friends were playing in the rain. There was a small puddle forming and I was dragging some of my friends to the pudlle and would jump and splash the water everywhere.

Once the rain started to slow down, the teacher in charge told us it was time to start the race. It was the first time in all the 5 years of running in the cross country that I manage to get top-100.I got number 71. I was happy and dissapointed at the same time. Happy because I manage to get top-100 and dissapointed because I did not qualified to get a medal. But it was still fun. Especially playing in the rain.

March Holidays!!!

I know it is a bit late. I know all of you will be expecting a good reaason as to why I have not been updating my blog is because I am just to lazy to do that. Simple as that.

As you read on the titile it is about my march holidays. Should I even call it a holiday. You tell me after you have read it.

Well on the first day of the holiday, which was a Saturday, I went to school early in the morning to attend a camp. The camp was at Sungai Congkak, Ulu Langat. The duration of the camp is 3 days 2 nights. So that would mean that i will come back on monday.

I came back on Monday, then on Tuesday I had tuition in the morning. Well I decided that I will go out with my friend to watch a movie. Then at night I had to attend a dinner organise by the Kiwanis Club Of Kuala Lumpur (KCKL) It was held at a park, which I can't remember the name.
The food was quite nice but sadly it was very little.

The next day, Wednesday. I went to school for extra class. The subject was EST. After the class my friend and I walk to Czip Lee. But since I brought my laptop, we decided to drop our bags at her house first. Then after that I went home around 3 and I had tuition at 4.

Thursday. I also had extra class on that day. That day itself my EST teacher ask us to help her to decorate a board. So after class I gathered some friends and ask them to help me. We decided to use it as one of our Moral project.

On Friday, I had to go to school for softball practice. The practice was from 8 in the morning to 3 in the afternoon.I literally spend the whole day in school. Because my mother only came to pick me up near 4.

On Saturday, I also went to school for Karate training. I am currently traning for my black belt now. It is tough. On that day we celebrated out Sir birthday.

Well I literally spend my one week holiday in school. There was no time to relax at all. I forgot to mention about Sunday. On sunday I went for my car maintanence course. It was also the first time I go to try to drive a manual car.